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Never Doubt Yourself

Posted by Kathleen Newhouse on

“Others will doubt you and that’s enough for one to deal with. Disbelief is another measure to wander, in this state of mass confusion. “She looks great; she must be fine.” A world of one, so contained that the only one given a key, is another survivor. Yet, they may be on a parallel line, running right beside you and you don’t even know it.”   “That’s Everything” original oil painting by Kathleen Newhouse is available for purchase as an online donation through our Paintings of Promise program. If you would like to request more information on how this original or...

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My World

Posted by Kathleen Newhouse on

Break out, wake up my lost soul! Return to the home within my heart. My crippled brain cannot find you. It cannot find me. On a plane, I stand above or below everyone else. I walk a space unseen by those who surround me. My labor of love, even they are blind to my loss. The children I forsake my life for; my blood, my heart, my dreams, my everything; they don’t know that I’m lost. Left behind, “the mom factor” died along with my brain. I no longer see love radiate from their beautiful eyes –  that shine, the twinkle is dead. It...

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Strength or a Miracle?

Posted by Kathleen Newhouse on

I’m not the pillar of strength you all think I am. I am not the picture of hope and courage you might believe me to be.  Yet, I put on a good show. I’ve taken the fine art of pretending to great new heights, to protect those I love. I pretend that pain doesn’t exist or at least that it’s tolerable. Little do they know that every minute of every hour in each and every day, I am in the clutches of hurt. Seldom is there relief and after years of waking to the same sun, the drought continues. Like the crackling earth...

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The Edge

Posted by Kathleen Newhouse on

We are never prepared for what we expect. I didn’t even know where I was going until I got there. Mysterious – what if I was never reframed, but what if I already was? My grief, I found my own way. Thank you for everything you taught me.  We are never prepared for what we expect. I lost myself in the wilderness. I didn’t know where I was going but everything was real. My life, like all lives, so close, so present, so wild, yet real. Sail away here and gone, it’s saddest song. The earth beneath my feet. Life and death....

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The Start of It All

Posted by Kathleen Newhouse on

The hospital emergency doctor insists it is a migraine, I insist it is not, but something worse, indescribable pain and confusion. The “all knowing” calls for morphine and release forms to sign. The pain NEVER subsides, only worsens. I keep insisting that it is ‘not a migraine.’ I’ve had many and this was completely different. But hell, what do I know? I don’t have a white coat and this isn’t a textbook. It’s just my body and my pain, my 50 years of experience and my gut feeling. A mother of four surely knows her children’s every health aspect, so surely she...

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